I’ve just been so busy! Running around doing and being everything. And not achieving anything. I am trying to do too much and be too much and its driving me crazy. I sometimes feel that all I want is out of the rat-race. I don’t want to be poor, I don’t want to ask my parents to help me out, I don’t want to do exams, I don’t want to learn IASGPMMSCP about EVERY disease there EVER was, I don’t want to go n at 7.30am every day, I don’t want to do research project – I want out.
I want to live on a narrow boat and draw and paint and play music and not HAVE to do anything. I think I’d achieve a lot more that way. I know that I’d be a nicer person too.
Maybe I don’t want to be enough anymore. Maybe I don’t care about being enough.
It is never too late to become the person you might have been.