Yes I totally am a bad person. I apologise. I've got internet at work and in Starbucks (yay for caramel soy lattes!) but I've spent so much time sending emails to friends that I haven't sat and written a post.
I have written a list of things to post about tho... I just need to get round to writing them!
It's been a fantastic, amazing and sad few weeks. I have met some of the most wonderful people - hospice staff, volunteers and patients. The thing that always gets me about Hospice is the laughter and the joy you meet in people everywhere. There is so much love.
One hospice volunteer told me:
'People always ask if its depressing when a client dies. It isn't. It's sad when a client dies, but it isn't depressing.'
That for me is the core of working in palliative care - it's sad when someone dies, but you are there to facilitate that death. You knew that the person was dying when you began the relationship - it was always meant to end. Hospice care is not depressing.
However, when someone dies unexpectedly it can be.
One of the women I have been working with killed herself last week. It was shocking for the whole team, and very distressing. She had suffered from chronic severe depression for many years, but recently had been doing 'better'. I think that she realised how low she had been and made the decision that she would never feel like that again. And this was the only way to be certain of that fact.
I hope she's found peace at last.
ps this is very disjointed - just re-read but can't be bothered to clean it up! sorry guys!